I have a very long history of making myself small, adapting and transforming my outward appearance. My speech, clothing, mannerisms, et al., were awkward for me and seemed to make me feel even more alien to other people than I already did. I’ll state the obvious here and say I had been trying to make myself into what I thought other people wanted from me.
Yes, I am a recovering people-pleaser, and yes, I went that far. Mostly subconsciously, but the fact remains that I didn’t want to show them Aimee. At the same time, I’ve always felt that I had something other-worldly that I needed to share with the world. Does this sound familiar? I see this Peacock card not only as encouragement to step out boldly and create from your heart, but to also feel the freedom of not altering that in any way. As with all lessons, there is no instant “fix”. As long as we are in these human bodies, we will always work for it. What I can promise you is that peace sitting right in your belly, taking the place of those anxious flares that shoot up through your heart and throat; all-consuming. It doesn’t have to be that way. In the same way you’re being encouraged to be bold, stand up and be fierce about your fears. Face them head on – awareness is key!
The Meerkat simply reminds us that we are not alone. Search your soul to pinpoint those people that you can trust, you’ll know – listen to your gut. And while you’re there, check in with your guides just to remind yourself that you are never truly alone on this journey.
For me personally, I’m starting a brand-new project, something I’ve never tackled before. You know what I did the first week after deciding I was going to do it? Write down ideas as they came to me and then proceed to fret to death over them. My sweet soul sister texted me today and let me know I could bounce ideas off her. DUH, AIMEE. I could have saved myself some days of spinning. I knew she would be happy to help me with anything, but why didn’t I reach out? Because of the behavior I described above. See how these animal energies are working together for you? All you have to do is ask.
~Aimee